You need not be ashamed of whom and what you are as long as who and what you are successfully strives to be whom and what you need to become.
Each one of us is born with an internal sense of purpose, ranging from a vague longing to a consciously specific, burning desire. Few of us ever question it; we simply accept it for what it is and act upon it whenever and wherever we can. If you were designed to fix things with your hands you will fix whatever you can wherever you can find it. If you were designed to compose music and perform, you will compose music and perform anytime and anywhere possible. If you were designed to be an orator, you will speak anywhere and anytime possible on any current topic that burns within you.
We each were designed with a unique personality that lends specific talents and aptitudes for authentically navigating life. You may well remember the moment you suddenly realized you were meant for something other than what you were doing. It is the moment you realized something was wrong; you were not meant for this and something has to change, now! That experience fundamentally changed you… forever.
Sadly though, our human nature wants us to make others see life from only our personal point of view. We force ourselves on each other at every level and in every facet of human interaction: society, culture, family, marriage, friendships, and casual interactions. Within each of these areas, we are expected to live our lives according to the expectations of common ‘normalcy’: “How dare you be different”. Unfortunately, this begins at home with parents: “You want to do what? No child of mine is gonna do that!” Some of us will resign to these expectations and die inside, existing from that point on, day by day, as a walking empty shell. Some of us though, despite the outside pressure, will feel the inferno begin to build inside and grow more intense day by day. Inevitably, we make the move and we’re off pursuing what we were ‘born to do’; it is a most freeing moment!
However, even if you are that one that defies the norm’ to pursue your life purpose, there is a price for standing alone, just as there is a price for resigning to the selfish expectations of others – nothing is without cost. You may find yourself someday feeling lonely or paralyzed by the feeling of guilt over ‘betraying’ your family heritage, your religion, or culture. We were not created to live in isolation from the people we love, but conversely, we were also created to live out the unique person we are inside, even if that means saying goodbye to those who mean so much to us. If your current path is not based on selfish desire, sheer rebellion, or self-indulgence, if truth is your source of direction – guiding you, leading you, prompting you – stand firm, dig in, and know that God will provide everything you need to both proceed and ultimately succeed – even if the results are different from your expectations. Truth knows no shame; and if truth is your source, you are becoming who and what you were created to be – life lives within you, for by truth alone and none other you live, unique and free.